That moment when your good friend tells you some news about their life and your heart is sad because you thought their news would actually soon be your own news.
That moment when you doubt whether the amount of joy they are feeling is ever something you can feel yourself.
That moment when insecurity begins to overwhelm your mind and consume your thoughts, not allowing you freedom to breathe or escape, not even a little.
That moment when you read people wrong and you get hurt causing you to realize just how fragile you really are.
That moment when all hope seems to be gone, and you don’t know where to go.
That moment when life sucks.
THAT is the moment where I am right now.
THOSE are the events that literally have happened within the last 48 hours.
THIS is the time that I honestly am drawing a blank…my back up plans for situations occurring in my life did not cover this.
I am at a loss, and quite honestly it is frightening. I do not like it. Not one single bit.
But something that I am realizing, again literally within the last 15 minutes, is that I have no control over my life. I cannot choose the series of events that occur, and I cannot make people think, act, or feel a certain way. I am not the one who decides these things. Not even a little.
It’s hard. And
every once in a while daily I forget that He is the one in control. He is the one with the plan, not me. Even when I do not like what happens, it is up to Him, and He promises to never leave me. He says He will work all things together for good for those who love Him and have been called according to His purpose. I know I have a purpose found through Him and I know it will all work out for good.
In these moments when doubts invade and life is not how I want it to be working out, I have to remind muself that even when things hurt and are confusing I am loved and cherished by a King. A King who adores me and delights in my heart and wants me to pursue His own heart with disciplined delight.
It is during these times that when my own ideas and back-up plans have all failed that He calls me to seek Him out. It is now that my heart finds rest in His own, even when life sucks sometimes.
Speak up! Have you ever had a situation in life not go that way you wanted it to? Has your life ever sucked sometimes? Share your story!