That’s the best way to describe how I am right now.
I haven’t felt anything for over a month.
My heart hasn’t really been stirred for over a month.
Sure, there have been times that I have laughed, and smiled, and simply enjoyed life.
But for the most part, nothing.
I’m struggling with something, but I cannot, for the life of me, put my finger on what it is.
It doesn’t really make since.
I’m not depressed, I choose joy daily, I seek the Lord, and I know that He is there, yet I feel…nothing.
Nothing really penetrates into my skin.
Nothing really makes my heart become wonderfully aware.
And I don’t know why.
But that’s how it is.
And I don’t really like it, but I don’t know what to do about it.
So for now, I’ll just stay numb.
And I’ll struggle, with whatever it is.
And I’ll take comfort in the reality that I have a Savior who struggled too.
He knows what’s going on.
So for now, I’ll do the only thing I can.
I will trust.
How have you been feeling lately?